Friend For life:)

This woman has become such am important part of my life!! the very thought of her going away and me not able to meet her got me jitters..Shes someone who will never be judgemental of u..who'd respect you even if u killed a tousand people coz her heart was cast in gold..she truly is an amazing soul and i wish her a life of love and happines wherver she is..we've spent crazy times together,been silent soo comfortably in each others presense and done the craziest stuff together..!!
just want you to know that youre very special in muh life!!
looking forward to crazier times together;)
mwaahzz:)

Bitter Sweet Memories...

After all the boo haa that was created… For the first time I realized the meaning of the phrase "BLOOD IS THICKER THAN WATER".. When the phone call came through ,it took but a moment to finish feelings ,smash to smithereens the memories, break the wall of the little faith that the woman I took as a Godmother had in each other, the person I soo admired and idolized and prized more than my own Mother.
Not that I have regrets...but it all went in vain.
there was soo much to be said and cleared but it was’nt the time, and there were no chances given .Perhaps coz the loudness in tone was a medium to justify their own shortcomings but that had nothing to do with the woman I loved so dearly. Her position and relationship with her kin was of utmost importance to her but if she were the woman I idolized there would be chances give, the tone would be calmer if not composed the anger would be enveloped if not hidden.
Maybe someday life would show reality, maybe not ,i feel stupid in having letting someone affect my existence to such a great extent ,feel stupid in having been vulnerable again with feelings and emotions. How I wish I would have known that blood is thicker than water.
Its ironical as to how things are today, it sure wasn’t the fate but what came as a surprise to all .it didn’t even take 24 hours for the emotions to evaporate but life makes you come across crazy happenings every day and it has once again got me to a standstill yet again with me questioning my own faith in myself. I wont say that it didn’t affect me coz it has shattered me in a lot of ways, but I know that I will come out strong. Will fight my fears and won’t let them haunt me for long .My life revolves around myself and my family and how I wish id realized earlier the meaning of the phrase!!!

“Sometimes it takes an unexpected encounter to put our life in perspective.”
By Ian Harrison.


I wish them well and would always do ,have had soo much to learn and memories that I would eventually try and forget but its sad to be associated to someone and forgotten in a jiffy ,I would try and do that too as it is comfortable to my existence but my mothers words today would always haunt me. .always...Im sorry MOM!!.i know that u being u would forget about it soon but i never would. .it affected you too and I know that for a fact My ‘LIFE’ said that I should have given them a piece of my mind but my respect for that woman is too strong though the feelings now would be hidden .I can never answer back to the people I soo dearly respect and she would always be loved by me and missed and she was and will always be the woman who I soo dearly idolized.!!

I would never forget today but will remind myself what Dad always says”

Even the worst haircut eventually grows out…..

Probably the most important day of my life..turned out to be the worst one..its crazy how some mornings just bring no sun forget the shine and leave u soo cold..wat started as a crazy morning with a flat tyre ,no balance o the phone,people screaming their heads off at u on a busy highway looking at you like it was your choice to stay there in the middle of the NH8 stranded with nowhere to go,fearing the speedy cars wud just crush u on one of the most importnt days of any hoteliers life at the embryo stage....wen i was to appear for an OCLD interview..sitting across that chair in that interview room was never so tough.. like it had been today..it was crazy,my mouth dry ,clueless about the bombarding of seemingly easy.. yet questions i never thought wud be even a part of an interview at that level.aint an excuse in any way.. clearly didnt give them any reason to eve think of recruiting me..its been my biggest failure in a very long time..never been easy 4 me to lose to sum1..never wud be..its hard to face defeat..always was..i never felt it..today i did and then the people who u thought wud have wished well for you never did..like suddenly all the hems came out loose and hanging all of which were once so beautifully knit together..i feel a sense of pain today and defeat..i got plenty strong words to give me sleep though by people who matter..but i miss the ones that once did..i wish em well n just wish they hadnt wished this way...its weird belonging to someone and then suddenly the loop breaks and we hang there in oblivion.absolute darkness..not that i regret..just wish well for those who didnt..wish well for those who said theyd care..am hurt in alot of ways today..i clearly am ,,but let this affcet aint me..i wud never let that happen.its not human to stay unruffled but i proudly say i was true...and gives me great satisfaction in having decided what i did and lets hope for happiness..sincerely..for all of us..sounds philosophical but yeah am in my moods today when i just want to stay curled up in bed and and read a nice book by Coelho and just sipp some good home made tea..miss home today and miss the warmth of those who sinecerely care with or without our faults..reminds me of what they say..the only genuine thing is blood!!

This seems like a new beginning,its too much too soon,the feelings funny,the emotions are contradicting,the responsibilities are plenty,life's taken a brand new turn,wonder for the good or the bad,i call it serendepity ,my frnds call it stupidity,should life take its toll or should i decide..My earlier attmepts at that have been random and compulsive,wonder what's good ,whats bad..or would it last..they say that its a compromise,,i didnt plan it that way,,this was thrown..is it just a catch??
whtever it takes,
will give it my best..
leave it to destiny..
rest shall soon be known..
Amen..

Cobweb Of Life

This is a piece of art created by Jatin Sapru,A Man i respect and care for and wud do so always,it says cobweb of life and tells us the way in which all of us humans have entangled ourselves in the bittersweet ways of life and are in a contant need of finding a way out...but stay stuck in the web of life till we get to our graves...however vague it may sound it is the reality of life!!

Go GOA;)

Goa :whoa a holiday there has clearly refreshed me in evry which way,from the sunny beaches in all its splendour,the sand on the feet,lounging in the shacks lazily all day,sipping Kings beer and not to forget muh favourite archers..its pure PSYCHEDELIA..the allure about goa is it still is original and much of its beauty is oriental in form...its beautiful..the henna tatoos,,i got a dragon done on muh leg and another sumthing somewhere;))alll at throw away prices with crazy bargains..these tattoos last u for abput a monthe which suits me the best as i get bored pretty easily and then i want muh self all clear and clean..the day starts and ends sipping alcohol which doesnt pinch as its cheapest in the stAte,,the trance got me real hich,,they call it Dragon trance ,,its crazy beats in shacks,smell of Chillam in the air,people moving around with crazy expressiona o their faces,,life is at a stanstill there,no rush hours,no traffic,,and the best part is that perhaps the only place in india where the skirts outnumber the sarees...such a relief..the people are welcoming and make u at ease in a jiffy,,the cops are always on the lookout for crazy people like me who drive around activas and avengers....without a licence thinking its apna U.P..n hey if u get caught,,they wont leave till all ur pockets empty..for the smart asses like me,,jus runaway if ure sure of the chase;))...hey i also gor hair braiding done..cantr wait till i go there again...miss u GOA!! draft

Blood Blessings

Today as i sat with mom with our large cups up tea..the usual afternoon and what smelled and tasted like home.I realised we have been catching up on so many things and occurences in both our lives recently an am soo glad,hers being a teacher for more than 25 years now..weve spent the most beautiful time this time around as we had recently come back from a vacation in pune at muh brothers place who is currently employed and happy and so were we to c him settled...We have been catching up since almost what seems long hours that never seem enough.My mom whos always earned the praise of all my friends and one in particular aditi whos all praises for her always as she puts it "babe,shes the most amazing mother there ever was"..true every word of her praise..she truly is!!Although we have always kept in touch with our lives yet before this vacation we had never reallly dissected the happenings and the occurences,something that we do so often ..Today when i was leaning back on my cushion in the drawing room sipping tea with her i realised .."i always knew she is an amazing mother but today shes more like a very dear friend"dunno when she became one..
As far as my memory stretches maa has always been the first person that i came to with every tear and every laugh..When i lost my front tooth and swore never to smile till i got back one,when i lost my favourite pen,when i first slapped a guy in school and when i did all those stupid things in my room like painting the door and writing stupid nothings when she was asleep and she would wake up 2 the horror of finding her expensive done up wall reduced to a spoiled one with smudges of paint here and there..she never said a word though her dissapointment was apparent..She has never judged me,and has let me set my own expectations,thankfully unlike my other friends who hav grown up with fights in the families amd separated parents or siblings that never acknowledged each other in public..Ours touch wood has been quite a happy modest upbringing woth a happy home front...Today as i sat across the woman who has given me life i can just thank her for her lovely gifts that have been in terms of letting me be me and not finding her ideal daughter in me..am soo glad to her for that ..i know that we are both growing up in experience and in coming closer to each other but all i want to say is that she has been perhaps the only one in my life who made me feel that my opinions were never immature and my thoughts never silly..
Love her
mwwaah