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Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Walking on Eggshells....

William shakespeare in Hamlet said "My words fly up ,my thoughts remain below.words without thoughts never to heaver go"
Be it a relationship,friendship,platonic engagements or anything that is played by adam and eve ....why do we have to undergo the microscopic lethalness of words that people without any idea bestow on us,our character,our relationships,,Why should man want to present himself or any acts in a silver plate to the outside world which otherwise seems so chill and freezes without any regard to the emotion underneath....why should we walk life under the scrutiny????
I have seen perfect relationships around me break into glass pieces without a trace of storm over arguments involving harsh Words....Nicking people with words has become what we say a fashion statement..In yesteryears people engaged in games like dance,drama to engage themslves..today people engage in nicking and slashing people with words,,,words which act like swords in any man's life...which are brutal and always leave stains....and scars which cant be undone.....

"Stick and stones, may break my bones, but words will never hurt me."
Remember that little rhyme from childhood?
I say its fucking nonsense@@##$$%Z%

Today am dwelling coz one of the closest people in my life was on tenterhooks coz some green eyed bitch could'nt digest a happy life of a counterpart ...... so what do we do put her life upside down..the green eyed biatch mailed the love of her life and fed him with lies puking on the poor girls character and nicking at her for practically even the way she farted in discomfort...they say jealousy thy name is woman..and in every right it is..i havent see any man doing such ridiculous things..
I have experienced jealousy when my guys gaze would linger on a nice looking girl but never like this...face it people there are better people in the world and why be soo judgemental of everyone around you..Does jealousy get the better of us all the time???. folks excuse "nicking" as just being brutally honest. In my experience, most of the folks who brag about being brutally honest enjoy the brutality more than the honesty....Am a straight forward person myself but never have i ever stepped over someone's character...
If the other person tells you that you have no right to your feelings, it may be because they do not really understand how emotions work. Or perhaps they want to divert attention from their own bad behavior by blaming you instead.

I have been in a relationship where i was walking on eggshells but am growing and growning well outta it,its important we realise....
Realize that our emotions belong to us They are real and they are ours. We have a right to respect owr own feelings, values and dignity, and to ask that others do the same.
Moving on to relationships...
Most people get involved in a relationship for the right reasons and leave a relationship for the wrong reasons..i walked outta mine coz i felt abused verbally ,emotionally and when a relationship becomes abusive its time to call it quits coz a relationship without respect is a hollow relationship and i dont think its bad... In fact, most of us have been guilty of it at one time or another and of being a complete spaz demanding we get our way in the relationship. Remember the movie He Said, She Said? A constant power struggle ensues when you make the relationship all about you. So why do we do it?Why do we get into one...Am single but why do i in my head scan people to think if they would be a lasting relationship material..why is there a need always for us to be fussed over by someone of the opposite sex..am blessed in my life with a stable family,care and love and friends who would always back me up..why then do i always sie people and their worth by putting them in the same frame....Do i really need a relationship or is it because people frown when they see single..it is slowly become a synonym for undesired...Am single but definitely not ready to mingle am happy on my own why still when i sleep i have thoughts that make me lonely..calling the realtionship quits was a personal choice i made ..then why do i dwellin my past ..what is that my life lacks..a companion maybe with whom we share our darkest deepest secrets..wonder what am i looking for.definitely not aother relationship.....Am closing my eyes and praying not to lay flat in the trap society nets out for me...i need wisdom and i need prayers to keep the sunshine alive..my life cant be defined by a set of Adams...
I believe the reason this happens is that we make unhealthy relationship choices. In our deepest inner desires, we naturally long for companionship and love in our lives. In our haste, we choose unwisely and compromise for that "next person" that comes along to satisfy that longing. In this context, it's easy to bend and flex because in the beginning we still don't know that person. Then as we do get to know them, we find ourselves making more compromises because we don't have the guts to fess up to our mistakes and all sorts of other irrational reasons rambling through our head to avoid hurting someone else. Bad move, fess up.

2 comments:

Shivender said...

People always get choices to chose from!! Its up to us to open our minds n eyes to make the right decision.I glad u can see the difference n make the right choice. And its best to leave somethings to their own destiny if u r not sure wht to do with them.......

invincible said...

i know that's what we all know but still we end up trapping ourselves in our own hands...hoping ill refrain hereby....Once bitten twice shy:)